To all of those who care,


For those of you that are reading this, I thank you for letting me share time with you. This topic scared me a little. One of my friends today was talking to me on IM when she had a seizure and was carried to ER.

"Luckily, she was okay, the doctor said it wasn't a seizure, but just a rather large migrain." -said her sister.

This scared the shit out of me. I was freaking out at my computer. BTW, my friend lives a couple days away from me, so there was nothing I could do. Amazingly, the doctors let her set up a webcam and she was in the hospital gown and all. They wouldn't let her look at the computer screen, but we chatted for a while. I used voice chat while she talked to me on video. It was quite stellar, and scary.

This experience taught me something. It's one thing to be a friend, but it's another thing to be a close friend. She and I have been talking for two months, but we have felt like it's been two years.

This also taught me something else, or at least just unleashed an emotion. I felt love. Not bf and gf, more like brother and sister or father and daughter. Honestly I felt more like a father, like I had to protect her and keep her safe. But at the same time I felt like a brother when talking to her in the hospital. It felt so surreal and amazing in a way.

Well I'm glad she's okay. And I'm glad you all wasted time to read this, if you did.

Peace out,
I gotta get some shuteye...
Dillon